So cruel..
So, I started taking my anti-depressants all over again. I stopped without telling my doc, which was obviously a bad move. I saw this movie called "Shopgirl" which did not help me sleep at night for about 2 days. I hope to be well soon, I know I have to make the effort from within.
I have thought this through and I am going to feel better no matter what.
I came across the lyrics of "So cruel" by U2. It is very close to the thoughts in my head. I was actually thinking about writing a poem for my blog- http://www.dark-poems1.blogspot.com/ . But then these lyrics blew me away. Beautifully powerful and apt.
We crossed the line
Who pushed who over?
It doesn't matter to you It matters to me
We're cut adrift
But still floating
I'm only hanging on
To watch you go down...my love
I dissappeared in you
You dissappeared from me
I gave you everything you ever wanted to have
I wasn't what you wanted
The men who love you, you hate the most
They pass right through you like a ghost
They look for you but your spirit is in the air
Baby...you're nowhere
You say in love there are no rules
Sweetheart
You're so cruel
Desperation is a tender trap
It gets you every time
You put your lips to her lips
To stop the lie
Her skin is pale like God's only dove
Screams like an angel for your love
Then she makes you watch her from above
And you need her like a drug
You say in love there are no rules
Sweetheart
You're so cruel
She wears my love
Like a see-through dress
Her lips say one thing
Her movements something else
Oh love
Like a screaming flower
Love Dying every hour
And you don't know if it's fear or desire
Danger the drug that takes you higher?
Head of heaven
Fingers in the mire
Danger the drug that takes you higher?
Head of heaven
Fingers in the mire
Her heart is racing...you can't keep up
The night is bleeding like a cut
Between the horses of love and lust
We are trampled underfoot
You say in love there are no rules
Sweetheart
You're so cruel
To stay with you
I'd be a fool
Sweetheart
You're so cruel
Labels: depression, him, Shopgirl